Highs & Lows

I have heard or read about people saying that they "don't feel like themselves" or that they feel as if their body isn't their own or that it's "betraying" them. I always thought those were pretty weird remarks..but now I know what they mean..

I have noticed in the last 6 weeks or so that I have been experiencing the dreaded highs and lows of PCOS. And I would even say "highs" but maybe just "normals". You see, PCOS is the result of a severe hormonal imbalance. In the male and female body we find testosterone, obviously in women's bodies is a much lower level. In women with PCOS, there is an elevated level of testosterone which throws off several of the female hormones (estrogen & progesterone) as well as other hormones. These hormonal imbalances can often also cause mood swings either slight or sever. Normally, a doctor could attribute the elevated testosterone to a woman being insulin resistant, however, in those that are not insulin resistant the imbalance is purely hormonal and even harder to give cause. (I should note there is no defined cause or cure for PCOS).

I have several other side effects of PCOS (which I will later address) but the mood swings have definately got me worried. I have never had them like this before and the intensity is scary. I can wake up in a good/normal mood and then just a few hours later be hit by this unbearable tidal wave of sadness. It just comes out of nowhere. This will last 1-2 days at most and is broken only upon awaking the next day it seems..however, if I am already in a bad/sad mood and this wave comes again-it keeps for longer, maybe even 4 days at most (so far).

It is enough to concern me, to affect my entire day and work as well as my responses to others and how sensitive I am in that time. I have never felt like this...I pray for God to give me strength and help me deal...Lord help me. I want to catch all this as soon as possible. My appointment with the Endocrinologist is on the 22nd, I will definately bring this up then...I know God is in control. But I feel like I am tossed all over sometimes..I just have to stay in my Word, pray and talk it out when I need to....oh the highs and lows..

-K