the time has come...

I think the time has come..to start a new blog. While this blog has served its purpose well and been an amazing outlet for me, my life now is no longer about struggling or dealing with infertility/PCOS etc...because we are now expecting!

I have to give pause to my Jesus..and thank Him for his healing powers..there have been so many pivital moments throughout this journey that I feel truly impacted what miracle did occur.

Pastor Wayne Mancari annointed my head with oil, layed hands on me and prayed over me and my husband in a Sunday service. Nothing distracting. Just a hearfelt, personal prayer that echoes still...it was the only time I was annointed while being prayed over..and while I dont sit here to point out that it didnt happen more than once, I believe that maybe it only needed to happen once. His prayer was fervent, meaningful and true and I thank him for his kindness and willingness to step out in the gap for my husband and I.

When we announced our troubles trying to conceive to our youth group...we did it as a precourser to our blessing. We knew God would come through for us with a pregnancy, we knew this. And we wanted our kids, our youth group to know that prayer works. Even after that service itself several 6th, 7th and 8th graders came up to me and layed hands on me and prayed over me. The faith of these children has moved mountains in our lives...I believe their faith paved the way for this blessing...and we were so greatful to announce this past Sunday that their prayers DID work. We are pregnant. God does hear them. To see that awe and excitement in their eyes..not just for us, but because of what GOD can do...was...just amazing. We love our Mixers :)

Our faithful and loving friends and family who not only lifted us up in prayer but offered tangible support through their faith...we are so greatful. I never felt like I should keep our struggle to conceive a secret..I knew one day, whenever that day would be..that God would come through...and in that, in our blessing...others might also be blessed or encouraged..that's what counts. And in the sharing of the news with family and friends the encouragement was so refreshing..it really helped me on the days I was down....I love you all..from the deepest part of our hearts we are greatful for each of you.

One Sunday a guest speaker Sammy Rodriguez came and spoke a message that penetrated my mind so deep..I had to respond. I say my mind, because in that time..my heart was so weak...I needed it to hit me where I could wrap my brain around what he was saying..I needed to understand it all. I previously blogged about that Sunday and the Word he gave so I wont go in to the details now but...I have never heard the story of the raven and the dove in that way...and it had been so long since I had been on my face, weeping at the alter before God. The Lord did something in me that day..that was huge for me.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that...I'm greatful. Greatful for it all, the good and the bad...God grew Chris and I in ways I had prayed for. He has blessed us with our deepest desire and I feel whole..I feel (honestly) sick to my stomach from the pregnancy but I rejoice even in my feeling physically sick :) Because there is life here...not just in the physical but the spiritual. Even in our struggles...in my personal struggles...I had joy & confidence and that cannot come from man or a doctor...God is my source and I just wanna give him all, all ALL the GLORY...

I will leave this blog...I will remember this blog...I will miss it. But--there is a new journey to be written of and I can't wait to start...the two have become three...and we are excited as ever....I will post the link to my new pregnancy/baby/life blog once I have it....

The end of this blog is bittersweet...I leave with good memories of how God has strengthened me...and with gratitude that I have been healed..and gifted with this amazing blessing...and still I say. I am not broken..thank you Jesus..

With Love,
Kristina