Great is thy faithfulness

I can only smile when I think about how faithful my God is..No matter what we go through, He is there. He know's our needs and will surely fulfill them. Notice that I said needs..not wants. Not that the Lord will not fulfill the desires of our hearts..He surely will should they line up with His plan. But when I say needs, I mean needs. And I needed Friday night..



Let me start you at the beginning. In the previous posting below, I explain the ups and downs emotionally of PCOS. Mainly, PCOS is the result of a hormonal imbalance. This causes several symptoms (they can differ from woman to woman) and in my of the symptoms I have, mood swings are definately one of them. To make a long story short (or a long story longer if you want to read the post below) I sometimes get these out of nowhere, uncontrollable tidal waves of sadness. They literally come out of nowhere, often when I am having a pretty okay day. They last for one to two days at most and go almost as suddenly as they come. Noticeable, enough to cause concern and make me wonder what's going on within my body. Feeling like my emotions/body has betrayed my..feeling so sad to my core for no reason that I can conceive..not being able to pull myself out, it just..leaves me exhausted to say the least. I am more sensitive, quick to be offended or hurt and apt to be off alone until it passes.



I had been having a pretty rough week this past week and my husband and I were due to attend a Joel Osteen event Friday night. Joel is a minister known for his encouraging & uplifting messages..a lot of what I know I needed--none of which I felt like going toward. I just didnt have anything in me, even though I know I needed it, I was to emotionally and almost physically exhausted to get home finally just to leave again. But I have something else I need, my husband. He had planned for us to go, we were going. And thank God we did. I really mean that, thank you Lord that we were able to go. You see one of Joel's worship leaders, Cindy Ratcliff, shared her testimony that night. She has gone through infertility issues. She, with such grace, explained briefly the struggle she and her husband had to conceive. But her story was not about infertility, it was about God's promises, plan & blessings endured and prevailed. She was able to conceive a son of her own and then later was so amazingly chosen by God to adopt twins (a boy and a girl, which her 1st son asked for years before!) She was so encouraging & most importantly real. She spoke of once feeling like a failure as a woman, not being able to have a baby the way a woman should. About feeling like a failure to her husband and so on..I so related to that and I appreciated her transperancy more than you know.



After her testimony, she played a slideshow of her husband and three beautiful children while singing "Great is thy faithfulness"...so fitting. I heard every single word she said, many pierced my heart and were a gentle yet firm reminder that God is God. He is STILL on the throne, He is above all, in charge and FOR us. I cried through the majority of her testimony & slideshow..not just cried... I ached..I was so raw emotionally and I was surrounded by other believers who although may not have known my story, but they knew the same God I did and their worship alone encouraged me. It all reminded me of what I was supposed to be doing..what I said I would do. Worship my God through it all. Because he is good. Because He is on the throne and sovereign. He is for me. He is my comfort, my refuge and my healer. He is my provider and guide. And GREAT is thy faithfulness...





-K